My what if's in life

What if my real name is not jenny,
Do I still appreciate the female name of owl which is jenny?

what if my nick-name is not bulak,
Do I still hear the sweet voice of my mom calling me every morning,
''My little bulak please wake up?''

What if I am a flower, Could I give a beautiful, colorful and good scent for those butterflies who want to my nectar?
Or could people want to put me on their table as their centered of attraction?

What if my hair is not curly,
Do people still appreciate my enormous beauty?

What if I couldn't experience playing when I am a child,
Do I still want to have a childish mind right now?

What if I lose my eye sight,
Could I still see the sparkling and glittering
of the stars when night come?

What if I have no eyes,
Could my boyfriend will say ''Your the light of my life?''

What if I lose him,
Could I go back to the past and correct the wrong steps I made?

What if I'm not in this world,
Do I have still two supportive brothers that always make me a laughing stock?

What if I fail my parents trust and goals for me,
Do I have still a face to say them,''I'm sorry?''

What if I'm a singer,
Could I sing the song that was given by a good composer?

What if I have no heart ailment,
Do my parents and friends still protect, understand and care me?

What if my heart stop beating,
Could I still identify the sweet voice coming from within?

What if I die tomorrow,
Could I have a peaceful soul in heaven?

What if I am rich,
Could I experience this cruel and misery life I have now?
Could money alleviate my frustrations and my gloomy outlook in this life?

If you reach your what if's in life,
Could you help me to go up there?